Why I Was Absent From Social Media for 8 Months

My Journey Through Grief, Change, and Unchanging Love

Hello, friends. It’s been a long time, eight months, to be exact, since I last posted or shared anything here. I want to take a moment to explain where I’ve been, what I’ve been through, and, most importantly, what I’ve learned.

Facing My Father’s Illness

Eight months ago, my world changed when my father’s health began to decline. Suddenly, my days were filled with hospital visits, difficult conversations, and the heavy weight of facing my dad’s mortality. Every moment felt precious and fragile. The stress of everyday life, which once seemed manageable, became overwhelming. I found myself unable to keep up with work, social obligations, or even the simple act of sharing my life online.

Stepping Away to Rediscover Myself

During this time, I made the difficult decision to step away from work. It was terrifying! I worried about not earning an income, about what would happen to my career, and about what people might think. But I knew I needed space to process, to grieve, and to be present with my family. In the quiet that followed, I started to rediscover myself. I learned to slow down, to sit with my emotions, and to find comfort in small, everyday moments.

Loss, Grief, and the Struggle to Move Forward

My father has since passed away. The grief is still very real and raw. Some days, I feel lost and unsure of how to move forward. Change is never easy, and the changes I’ve made in my life, leaving work, letting go of old routines, have left me feeling vulnerable and uncertain. Grieving is not a linear journey, and I am learning to give myself grace as I navigate this new reality.

The Unchanging Love of Jesus

Through it all, one thing has remained unchanged: Jesus’s love for me. In my darkest moments, when I was terrified of the future and unsure of how I would be provided for, I found comfort in knowing that I am loved and cared for by a God who sees me. Even when I struggled to accept my father’s passing, I found a peace that surpassed understanding. A kind of peace that allowed me to enjoy the simple joys of family and everyday life, even in the midst of sadness.

Hope for the Future

I am still grieving. I am still sad. I am still unsure of what the future holds. But I also have hope. I trust that God’s plan for me is unfolding, even if I can’t see the whole picture yet. I am learning to let go of control and to give Him the reins to direct my life.

If you are going through a season of loss, change, or uncertainty, I hope my story reminds you that it’s okay to step back, to grieve, and to rediscover yourself. And above all, I hope you know that you are loved, unchangingly, unfailingly, and completely by a God that sees you even when you can't see Him.

Thank you for your patience, your prayers, and your support. I’m grateful to be back, and I look forward to sharing more of this journey with you.

Send me a message if you would like for me to pray for you. God bless always!